How can a person tell you that they love you if they are already committed with someone else?
Was it because you show too much attention to them that they think you like them a lot so they say these THREE WORDS to please you? STUPID. Was it because they mixed the feeling of love with friendship, plus they are currently having a problem with their relationship? STUPID. Or THEY JUST THINK ITS LOVE BECAUSE THEY’RE COMFORTABLE WITH YOU. STUPID.
After they say their feelings for you, everything will be a mess! Why? Because you have the “same” feelings for them which you kept because they’re committed. And what’s worst? YOU “ALSO” CONFESS. Because you’re thinking that maybe, just maybe you’ll have a chance. But a fucking truth will hit you, you’ll realize that nothings gonna happen between the two of you because you wouldn’t want to ruin a relationship with your selfishness.
Then pretensions happen. You’ll let them be together like you don’t give a shit. You have to act like you don’t give a fuck AT ALL. Like nothing happened. Nothing was said. Like you don’t know that person. Like that person never existed. But the truth is you’re hurting. They’re like holding each other’s hand, playing, giving each other a pat and a smile and dancing. And you’re all like faking a smile, a laugh, pretending to be strong, looking at the other side of the earth just to keep yourself from crying and wishing it was you.
What’s gonna happen next? What are we? We’re awkward.
All you can do is to sit there, wait, think.
Should I hold on?
And hope that maybe there will be a right time. That the the two of you will be given the chance to be together. It may not be soon but it will come.
Or give up ?
Because nothing’s right. The friendship is gone. Nothing is left between the two of you but the feelings that you believe will soon vanish. You delete everything. Phone number, most treasured text messages, not because you’re bitter, but because you want to forget. To entirely forget.